Back to Waiting...

One year and four months later we have decided to "take a break." We talked about the possibility of breaking up last month, but it didn't happen, we "weren't ready." When is anyone ready to end a longterm relationship? We haven't told too many people yet; it's difficult to tell people without tears quickly forming.

He's had a lot of doubts over the past year. I had many doubts and frustrations as well, but still thought he might have been "the one." But maybe I was settling (ugh, I don't like that word!). We came to a place where we were "stuck." We liked dating and being with each other, but our love wasn't growing, it was quite stagnant. It took several hours to talk about what we were going to do, getting off subject, and approaching it again. I knew something had to be done; we either had to work harder at our relationship or end it, because I didn't like that feeling of being in relationship limbo.

That was Monday night. Tuesday we hid our relationship status on Facebook, but not declaring ourselves single just yet. Tuesday night we were hanging out, watching some 24 (we got hooked onto it), and he proposed that we just take a break, that we treat each other as friends do and see how things go. I asked "how do friends treat each other?" and he said "Nice." He explained that he's been treating his friends better than how he treats me, which I could agree with. We still have fun together, so we'll still hang out, but I suppose it won't be as much as we used to see each other. I think we're trying to make this as easy as it can be for us.

I don't care what you call it, "taking a break" or "breaking up" will always suck. It's a really sad time and trying to avoid pain can seem easy, but no matter what, you always need time for healing and facing the brokenness.