Quick Quote

Thought of this the other night...

Your Prince Charming isn't going to be some cookie-cutter perfect man...he is going to be the man who captures your heart and holds on to it like the greatest treasure in the world.


Hopefully more on that to come.

How I Know it's Love

How I know it's love: Receiving an unexpected text from the bf saying:

Lisa, you are such an amazing, beautiful, and holy woman. I am completely stoked I have the opportunity to date you. That is all.

 Reading those words after I got back from lunch rendered me completely speechless as waves of emotion swallowed up my heart. I love him. :) And I had to share that somewhere...thought this would be a good outlet for it.

In the future...

 

In the future when I have kids, I want them to be able to look at my husband and me and say "Wow, my parents are so in love!"

Prince Charming

Earlier today I read a friend's blog post that I enjoyed for several reasons. It's titled "One day my Prince will come..." and I immediately connected because I used to write that in some of my journal entries. She started off writing about how perfect Prince Charming is and how every little girl might expect him to come...yet he isn't realistic. After reading that I wasn't sure where she was taking the post (I believe that I have finally "found" my Prince Charming, so of course I think it's possible). She then turned it in a different direction and reflected on how she doesn't have to wait for her Prince Charming because he has been here all along in the person of Jesus. We are already princesses and are loved with a deep and great love. She then swings it back to talking about a "future spouse" and I loved these next few lines:

I do believe that if God is calling me to marriage, He has also created a man who will be perfect for me. He will compliment me in all the ways I need to be complimented and he will make me a more holy and faithful woman of God. In his unique way he will be my Prince and sometimes he will save the day but he will never be my Savior.

As I said earlier, I believe I have finally found my Prince Charming. I once thought it was someone else, but turns out I was wrong, and boy am I glad I was wrong. Sometimes people say "you just know," and that is true. It's only been two months but we're already discussing and discerning the vocation of marriage. I learn more and more how we do compliment each other and he (and his dad) make me want to be a better and more holy woman.

I thank God every day for this man, and it turns out that waiting for pursuit really is worth the wait. :-)

Blessings

"I'm in love, I'm in love, and I don't care who knows it!"

Those words from Buddy in Elf stick out to me today.

I met a guy who makes me smile almost 24/7. A guy who greatly respects me and cares deeply about me. It's an amazing feeling! It seems too good to be true that God placed us in each other's lives, but I guess God does like to bless us on occasion. :)

Back to Waiting...

One year and four months later we have decided to "take a break." We talked about the possibility of breaking up last month, but it didn't happen, we "weren't ready." When is anyone ready to end a longterm relationship? We haven't told too many people yet; it's difficult to tell people without tears quickly forming.

He's had a lot of doubts over the past year. I had many doubts and frustrations as well, but still thought he might have been "the one." But maybe I was settling (ugh, I don't like that word!). We came to a place where we were "stuck." We liked dating and being with each other, but our love wasn't growing, it was quite stagnant. It took several hours to talk about what we were going to do, getting off subject, and approaching it again. I knew something had to be done; we either had to work harder at our relationship or end it, because I didn't like that feeling of being in relationship limbo.

That was Monday night. Tuesday we hid our relationship status on Facebook, but not declaring ourselves single just yet. Tuesday night we were hanging out, watching some 24 (we got hooked onto it), and he proposed that we just take a break, that we treat each other as friends do and see how things go. I asked "how do friends treat each other?" and he said "Nice." He explained that he's been treating his friends better than how he treats me, which I could agree with. We still have fun together, so we'll still hang out, but I suppose it won't be as much as we used to see each other. I think we're trying to make this as easy as it can be for us.

I don't care what you call it, "taking a break" or "breaking up" will always suck. It's a really sad time and trying to avoid pain can seem easy, but no matter what, you always need time for healing and facing the brokenness.

The Chronicles of my new Adventures

It seems like it has been forever since I have written on this blog. I suppose 4 (+) months is a long time and a lot can happen! A lot has happened. In December I was finally accepting my singleness; I was ok with the fact I wasn't being pursued by anyone and I certainly wasn't going to be pursuing either. I was also thinking more about moving back up north after my program is finished (this summer). Everything changed after one weekend.

On December 18th I organized our parish's Christmas caroling to the homebound. Some of the choir members from one of our masses graciously volunteered their Friday night to join us. We had two routes and long story short, all of the young adults (three choir members, two others, and myself) were on one route with a few other people. After the caroling I was telling the young adult crew about our Ugly Christmas Sweater party the next night and asked everyone if they were going. Jeremy and Robert both said they'd be there.

The party was crazy, as the Christmas party usually is: lots of people, a silly white elephant gift exchange game, and many beverages. It kind of seemed like this Jeremy guy was into me - he'd come around me once in awhile and he'd get into pictures next to me and even asked if I'd take one of the two of us. Before he left for the night he asked if he could take me to lunch sometime. I agreed, not really sure exactly what that meant, but it was exciting nonetheless. When we both got home from the party we were on facebook and ended up chatting until 4 a.m. I told Jeremy I was leaving the next day to go home to Wisconsin for Christmas, so he asked if I'd like to do lunch on Sunday after Mass. Again, I agreed.

On Sunday I was pretty nervous. We seemed to hit it off while we were chatting (granted, it was chatting over the internet, late at night), and I assumed it was a date. Jeremy drove to the restaurant and he was such a gentleman about everything, he wouldn't let me touch the passenger door to his truck! He opened it for me, whether I was getting in or getting out. We ate a delicious pizza and answered questions about ourselves. I enjoyed my time and I looked forward to telling one of my roommates all about it.

While I was at home in Wisconsin we began talking on the phone. We shared some pretty late conversations and on Christmas day/night we talked for 7 or 9 hours. Maybe it wasn't 9 hours, but I don't quite remember. It was long and it was wonderful. We really got to know each other over the phone. There was an ease about sharing our lives with each other. Maybe it was too easy and happened too quickly. Maybe it was all meant to be. When I came back to Texas on December 30th Jeremy surprised me at work with some of my favorite candies. I was shaking when he was in my office, I was nervous again! It was easy when it was over the phone, but seeing him in person brought me back to reality. That night he cooked me a delicious dinner at his apartment, we watched a movie, and we hung out. Late, late that night we decided to make things official. We talked about it on the phone, so why not!? We both really liked each other.

A little over two months later, we still do. This relationship thing has been really new to me. The first few times Jeremy would say the word "relationship" I would get this weird feeling: Wow, this is real, I'm actually in a relationship. As stated in my previous post, I hadn't been in a relationship for over 4 years before I met Jeremy, so I had to learn, through the current experience, what being in a relationship means. I had read (most of) Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus, but that isn't real life. I'm still learning what it means to be in a relationship. Being a couple, sharing a part of our lives with each other, caring deeply for the other... experiencing the bad moods, whether it's mine or his, we kind of experience it together... the ups and downs, the disagreements and middle ground... thinking about the future... All these things go on while we also have to keep our own identities and not forget who we are as individuals.

Life was so different before Jeremy and now many things have changed, but I suppose that is to be expected. I am not implying these changes are negative, simply different. I think one experiences a lot more emotional when they're with someone... First of all, I have a companion to share my life with, the things that suck and the things that bring me joy, so the emotions that go with all of those things are probably built up a little bit since I can share them. I also experience my own joy and love simply being with Jeremy and knowing I am loved in return. And of course, like any relationship, I can get frustrated with him - yet more emotions! Those days that aren't the best only make the good days even better.

I know I have written a lot... but I felt I should share the update, and not simply the boring straight facts. This is life and life is messy, but it also has its many blessings, and my relationship with Jeremy is one of those.